~I still don't remember, but this one's good too!~

I've wracked my brain trying to remember what Lily said that was so blasted funny! I simply can't remember, BUT, don't fret, she was hilarious again today!!!
So I had a copy of the Relief Society Lesson out today, and she asked me if she could please read it (no, Lily can't read yet lol). I, of course, tell her she can, so she grabs this talk/lesson and starts "reading" aloud. She then states "WE ARE HERE TO DESTROY YOU, by President Monson", totally matter of fact like. hahaha She then added some things like, 'keep the commandments'. So there you have it, you've been warned!! :)

~Congrats Kyle!~

Kyle's flag football team won the "superbowl"! :) The playoff game was really intense..... a close game! Kyle "sacked" the quarterback at a very critical point near the end of the game, which many referred to as 'the play of the game'. He did such a great job!!! The team and coach were great and the games were so much fun to watch! Congratulations Kyle.... you rock!!!



DJ and I went to the pumpkin patch with some friends. They had a lot of fun in the tiny hay maze and just walking freely through the pumpkin patch. Such cute kids!
Kissing a pumpkin! :)


So Lily said something SO funny the other day and I can't for the life of me remember what it was....... sorry! However, I do remember Toby's, since it happened today. The kids were singing this song (to the tune of The Farmer in the Dell), The cows give us milk, the cows give us milk, hi-ho the dairy-oh the cows give us milk. The chickens give us eggs....and so on. Then Toby starts singing "The Devil gives us milk, the devil gives us milk, hi-ho the dairy-oh, the devil gives us milk....again" I was totally caught off guard. I asked him what on earth he was singing and his response was "DAD", like, duh, you should know that. Because dad brought the milk in from the outside fridge....again. We tease dave about being evil sometimes hahahaha

~Leukemia strikes again~

My friend posted this the other day, and of course, having dealt with Leukemia in our lives, I will do what I can to help.

"There is a little girl named Taylie who is 4 years old and recently diagnosed with AML Leukemia. Her family is obviously terrified and drowning in medical bills that are only going to get higher. I came across a link to her blog, and really felt inspired to help out, and any one can do it too. It just takes a minute of your time to help this family. If you want to help all you need to do is write a short introduction about Taylie on your blog with a link to http://www.tayliebug.com/ then go to adashofseason.blogspot.com and leave a comment there indicating you made the link on your blog and you're done! Someone has offered to donate $2 for every blog with her link as long as you indicate you have done so on adashofseason.blogspot.com. So easy for a family that could really use some help."

Sometimes the smallest and simplest things, can mean the world to someone who is going through something like this. I love to see such beautiful acts of love and service.

~I love this time of year~

After living in Michigan for 5 years and going to apple orchards and pumpkin patches as often as we could throughout the entire fall , I have really fallen in love with the crisp cool air, fresh apples off of the tree, hot apple cider, warm cinnamon apple cider doughnuts, and pumpkin patches where we each pick our perfect pumkpin.
(Thank you Heidi, Kristin, Keirste and Julie for the many wonderful, memory filled playdates there!)

Kyle was a bit younger than DJ is now when we first went to an apple orchard/cider mill. I think he was probably wearing this exact sweatshirt we now see on DJ! haha it's lasted through several children :) It was much easier to keep an eye on just one child.....carry only my pumpkin and his....no school so we could go wherever, whenever.....we could fit our friends in the car with us..... no medical drama and outstanding medical bills......Wow things have changed so much! It really makes me see the importance of 'living in the now', appreciating what we have, right when we have it. I thought Kyle was going to be an only child after 4 years of trying and Dr.'s appointments etc.... and now I have 7 kids!!! :) I never understood the easiness of things with just one or two little ones, with time to spend together. I feel like I did take advantage of what I had, but I look back and wish that I had gloried in that time, instead of just abiding in it. Of course I've had life changing experiences since then and have learned how precious life is, and that life can throw curve balls and isn't always easy. I appreciate everything that I get to do with my family. It makes this trip to the pumpkin patch so much more important and meaningful. When DJ and Lily get so excited, and I hear them shouting "pumpkin patch, pumpkin patch!", it makes me happy, it makes me so grateful to be able to build these memories with them.



This time of year also gives me flashbacks of Toby being so ill. It will be 4 years ago (tomorrow), that we spent our entire day and night in the hospital, thinking we only had one night left with our precious son. He would have been about 8 months older than DJ is right now. He was so young, so little. His life changed in one night.......and so did mine. But boy, have we learned a lot!
So I just went scrolling through old pics to find one from about 4 years ago, and I'm not joking you, Toby is smiling in almost every picture....whether in the hospital, hooked up to IV's, taking yucky meds, or excessively overweight with steroids..... man he's a trooper!!!!! This picture was taken on the 14th, so we had been in the hospital a week at this point, but the steroids and chemo hadn't made any visible changes......yet! :)

*good times = picture overload* :)

Good Friends, good sport! Our dearest friends Janeal, Tanner and Cole, came over for a fun game of flag football. DJ and Lily ran in circles around the big boys lol



Happy 16th Birthday Jahde!!!! 16 is such an exciting age.... driving and dating. :) I hope this is a fantastic year for you!!! You are such an awesome son and brother! We love you.



We met our goal!!!! :) Thank you SO much to all of you who donated!!! Large or small, those donations make a difference, and mean the world to me (and lots of other families with children with life threatening illnesses). It's like giving $5 to say you care :) The Hopekids Wasatch Adventure walk was held at This is the Place Heritage Park. The kids enjoyed the sunshine and fresh air with star wars characters, activities like face painting, horseback rides, baby animals and trains :) Hopekids raised over $10,000, which was raised from Hopekids families and their supporters!!! They had an anonymous donor that matched up to $10,000, putting the funds raised to over $20,000!!! AWESOME! THANKS EVERYONE! WE LOVE HOPEKIDS!!! Medically speaking, our burden has been lighter, as Toby has finished his chemo treatment and is only going in for check ups/blood draws. But financially, our burden is heavy, and Hopekids provides us with acivities that we can do together as a family.... things that we would never be able to do or afford on our own. It has also helped us meet other families going through similar things that we have gone through, which provides great support. Seriously, Hopekids is a wonderful, wonderful blessing in our lives.











DJ put some woodchips on this little, innocent goats back. He looked up at Dave and smiled and said "I DID IT" haha :)
Dave sported a turtle on his cheek (probably the signature for our family's speed in the hope walk lol) This sparked 2 more tiny turtles to be born on Toby's and DJ's cheeks :) I had the Hopekids sun logo on my cheek and Lily had a cute flower. Kyle opted out of face painting even though I pressured him to show his support for BYU :) (maybe that turned out to be a good thing- after that sad loss)

*Hope*

Our family is walking with Hopekids in the "Hopekids Wasatch Adventure 2009". This is of course in honor of Toby. :) www.caringbridge.org/visit/tobywilson . We have to raise $100 to participate, but our goal is to raise $250. We figure if we get $5 per family/household, we will easily meet our goal!!! :)

http://www.active.com/donate/uthopewalk/TobyGage

Thank you to everyone who has supported us the last 4 years. Your prayers and love have been appreciated more than you know!

~a bit about moi~

So I always post about everyone else, but rarely about me. And when it is about me, it's typically very whiney.....probably hard to stomach when reading :) I'm not promising that this post wont have some whining :)

Lily took this picture of me..... I was impressed with her camera snapping skills :)

So I get my words mixed up.....ummmm fairly frequently. I am well known for calling my friends Jenny and Kaneal, instead of Kenny and Janeal. I also commented that I could hear a 'DARK BOGGING'. It took my family and friends a while to figure out what I was saying and how I mixed it up. It wasn't a simple first letter swap like Kaneal, it was entire word switching. I was trying to say Dog Barking. Dark Bogging. Nowhere close eh? We laughed pretty good at that one! And most recent, I ran to the store. I pulled into the parking lot, parked my van, exited my van, looked around my van, and then mumbled under my breath to myself " I'm a parky crapper" which of course should have been "I'm a crappy parker". I laughed and felt completely foolish, as I "crapped parky" and laughed at myself out loud in public! And now as I sit here typing and eating, I dropped a pita chip with spinach dip down my shirt. I really know how to impress!!
So my calling is Stake Young Women's Athletic/Sports Director. I have really enjoyed this. We are getting ready to start up volleyball and I'm excited! Volleyball is, of course, my favorite sport! I am still playing with a group of fabulous women on Tuesday nights..... love it! I'm trying to get some co-ed VB going in our stake. Dave and I really enjoy playing together :)
I have moments in my life where fear is present. I know that fear and faith don't coinside, and I do my best, but sometimes I really do 'fear'. I say to myself "what if we lose our home" or "what if Toby relapses" or "what if my life never settles down". But I think in general my faith wins out over fear. I have my momentary panic, but then I'm able to tell myself "even if we lose our home, we have each other and we'll make it" or "even if Toby relapses, my Heavenly Father will comfort me and help us through it". So why fear at all when I know that I have a loving Heavenly Father who is constantly watching over me? Because I'm not perfect.
My life hasn't been easy. Ever since Toby was diagnosed there seems to be constant stress. I have found myself wishing I could 'go back, before he ever got sick, back to a normal life'. It isn't that there aren't good parts of my life now, there are, wonderful parts! But there is so much stress that comes with 2 divorcees, sick kids, hospital bills and appointments, and what feels to be constant adjustment. But I know through it all that Heavenly Father has been lifting me up, helping me breathe one breath at a time. He has blessed me so much, even though sometimes it's hard for me to focus on, and hard to notice ALL that I have been blessed with.
So my ankle is healing, feeling better and better (yes a true blessing)! I am able to play volleyball at a skill level that doesn't make me crazy :) I have a court date set Sept 30th to fight my (what I consider to be frivilous) ticket. Even though I get sick to my stomach thinking about court, I do believe this is worth fighting. Ok I think that's enough about me :) lol


So Lily started preschool today!!! :) She did fabulous!

Toby had Miss Mary for preschool, we love her!




And while she was at school, DJ and myself picked up aunt Darcee and her boys to take another tour of the Spanish Fork airport (again) :) If you live close by, you gotta do this..... it's so much fun! Pilot Porter and passenger DJ.

See ya later cousins, I'm done. lol